Where to begin is always the hardest step in any process. It is change and change is uncomfortable. I am taking that first step forward into the next phase of my life. A journey without chaos. It is hard to believe but I have come to a place where I see my future is in my hands, and only my hands. I am 54 years old and I am finally taking control.
My mind has always been my biggest enemy. I am sure many of you can relate. The words of others have played repeatedly in my mind, telling me what I can or cannot do. It is that enemy, those voices, that say I can’t do something, that I am choosing not to listen to any longer. I am taking away their power.
I am going to explore my life. Where I have come from. Who the people are that brought me into this world. The battle of growing up, getting married and divorced, having kids, losing loved ones, the pain of loss, the ups and downs of love, the importance of laughter, the places my thoughts have taken me through the many transformations of my life. Life, a four letter word that holds a million little pieces of information.
It’s time to adventure into a journey through my yesteryears, my today’s and a peek into my tomorrows. This is the next step for me. I will be sharing my stories, my deepest and darkest thoughts, my true and honest opinions, and it wouldn’t be complete without my self inflicted obstacles. This is where I find myself as I begin this new year 2019.
You are welcomed to join me. Be warned though, there are a lot of things that will be hard for me (and you) to delve into but I need to free myself from these demons. It’s time for a change.